Monday, January 25, 2010

Days like this....

Well, today was a rather eventful day. I actually spent the day with my dad. With waiting on my new projects to start up and working on others simultaneously, I have truly taken more time to spend precious moments with family. I anticipate being married next year this time, so I am soaking it alllllll up... lol.

I will wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word I put my hope. Psalm 130:5

So anyway, as musically inclined as I am, I knew it had to come from somewhere. Today I saw it in action with my dad. Who is an ordained Pastor/ Prophet. When he accepted his calling into the ministry, he was a senior at FAMU and a Kappa. Which is saying A LOT for those days. Long story short, when my dad started the church, it was just me (1yr old), my mom, and one of his friends he grew up with. With that being the case, he needed a piano player. So, one night he was in prayer about one, and the next morning, God gave him the ability to play after NEVER playing. The rest was history. So fast forward to today, we were in the studio and God began to bring back songs he had written almost 30 years ago. You could literally feel the presence of God in the room. It was incredible.

After his 2 hour studio session, the Spirit was so ripe and encompassing. It was such a euphoric feeling in the air. My dad began to play a song he wrote in 1980 called, "God has not forgotten", a slow tempo worship song. The producer's eyes began to tear up and my dad began to prophesy to him. I then got on the mic and began to make up lyrics. It was so beautiful. (I will post it one of these days). As we were leaving, my dad spoke into the young man's life as I held my head down in prayer. I placed my hand in my back pocket and found $32 in cash. Now, $5 would of been great, $10 a blessing, but $32, something was TRULY going on. Those jeans had been washed and tucked away for weeks. I was going to take my dad to lunch and guess what, the seed I was going to sow was placed in my hand. God is so awesome.

When you have the desire to bless God's people, God will place seed in your hand. No matter the circumstance, God uses people on earth to bless people .The important thing that I keep learning is the more that I stress over what money I have in the bank, the less I seem to have. The moment I began to make a valiant effort to bless others and sow seeds, God began to immediately open doors for me. As He did today. Before we left, my dad told me to sow $5 into the producers life. I know you are like $5, girl for what? But what the number 5 means is "grace". My dad said it signified that we recognized the anointing that was in that room and that we were sealing a covenant amongst brethren that God will continue to grant us grace on our journey. It was simply incredible.

We left lunch and headed by to our side of town and something told me to run by Big Lots. Not that I need some whimsical figure to command me to do that, that is my 2nd home. lol. But anyway, all the Big Lot stores in the area have recently received books from local book retailers, so they have great books for $3 and $5. So as I was rifling though the bargain rubble, I came across this book with a gorgeous green dress with "weddings" across the front. I thought nothing of it and just grabbed it. When I go to the car, I opened the first page and there I found this scripture written on the 1st page, "And let us not be weary in well doing; for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not."- Galatians 6:9. *pause*

Now if God wasn't speaking to me specifically, I don't know WHAT! I began to rifle through the pages and Diann Valentine ( the incredibly creative, fabulous, wedding planner to Kelis & Nas, Lela Richon & Anthony Fiquoa and others), she began to tell her story of how she dealt with the broken relationship with her daughter's father, how she left home on faith to be an event planner & the company folded, to how she fell in love with love and found her calling. She said the most valuable lesson she learned in becoming who she is now was to WAIT. Lord have mercy, WAIT! She said, if she had of moved a moment too soon or too late she would have missed her calling, her purpose, where she was supposed to be.

I waited patiently for the Lord; and He inclined to me, and heard my cry.- Psalm 40: 1

That truly hit me to the core. It seems as though when we hit roadblocks in life, our first instinct is to run, turn around, and never look back. God has shown me that a roadblock is merely delay and not denial. That when He is the one that has closed or opened a door, He will do it again. The same God that delivered me before, we be right back on his job to deliver me again. So that very same roadblock will be a stepping stone to help elevate me to a place where I was supposed to be anyway. God is always showing out... lol

Although I don't know the whole story and I don't see the final picture right now, I saw today another piece of this puzzle I call my life. I mean, I couldn't make this stuff up if I tried. From 2 weeks ago leaving a place where I didn't want to be, to being denied from a place where I thought I was to be, to being in a place that I don't exactly know of how I arrived, to now being in a place where God is showing me glimpses of where I am to be. The bigger picture is coming closer and closer into view.

I know that WAIT is a message for me. And indeed a message for you. One of the greatest virtues that any of us can possess is that of patience. We each have to learn how to wait to see what the end result is going to be. If we all had a rewind button to relive situations in life, sure we would change some things and wished we could've waited a little longer, but we cant. All we can do is trust and know that the God we serve is a mighty and just God and that he hears our very heart's desires.

With the Lord, a day is like a 1000 years, and a 1000 years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise.- 2 Peter 3:8-9

Even as I write this, I can feel God in my very presence. I can hear Him whispering, "I have not forgotten you my child". And that gives me the power to keep waiting. He already knows what I need.

Patiently waiting and anticipating...



Alycia's Hot Spot! said...

I just have to tell you that I am so glad I subscribed to your blog. It is such a blessing. This article on waiting is exactly what I needed. I am currently at a crossroads in my life. I feel I need to do something to propel me forward to my destiny, eventhough it is still unclear. I know that God speaks to us through others. I know now that I need to continue to pray and wait until I hear God speak. Thanks for the word my sister. Please continue to let God use you in a mighty way!

fab_E said...

i'm telling you, your always speaking to a situation that going on in my life! your such a blessing!

prashant said...

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